Twitter Ramble: To Keep or Not to Keep?

I had a eureka! moment on Twitter today. Couldn't find time to write and let the words cohere so I'm posting them here for safekeeping until I return. These tweets were really stream of consciousness that I allowed to peak through. Thanks to Kimberly N. Foster for the seed that sprouted my thoughts.

Yes! Yes! I must write on this. RT @kimberlynfoster: Healing is hard.

For me, healing is hard bc of the words attached to the process. In order to heal one must be hurt first. I didn't think "bruised."

I thought "broken." I became obsessed with being "pure" or "whole" and once I'd convinced myself neither was attainable, I settled for hurt.

I settled for all the bad things because somehow, in my mind, the two negatives would cancel out and be positive. An emotional cutter.

My body, the chopping block. I see now that my body is a vessel. Back then it was an instrument, serving to further soil my name.

Yes, healing is hard, but it is not impossible. A lot of things are. Healing is not impossible.

Making emotional investments without promise of return is avoidable indeed, but the behavior is learned. One must be open-minded.

I've had self-sacrifice down pat for years. Self-service has been learned for me. That's what I aim to teach. Liberate the minds. Change.

I'm almost in tears but I must not stop the momentum. Teach young girls to love themselves, protect themselves, learn for themselves.

Teach them beauty is not skin deep, but in the eye of the beholder. Teach them to use their voices, opposed to their wombs, as weapons. Yes.

Tell a girl beauty is skin deep, she will see only what's in the mirror. Tell her beauty is in the eye of the beholder. She will own it.

*sigh* Felt really good to get that out.